Thursday, August 26, 2010


Alma 53:20-22

And they were all young men and they were exceedingly valiant for
courage, and also for strength and activity; but behold, this was not all-
they were men who were true at all times in whatsoever thing they were entrusted.

Yea, they were men of truth and soberness, for they had been taught to keep the commandments of God and to walk uprightly before him.

And now it came to pass that Helaman did march at the head of his two thousand stripling soldiers, to the support of the people in the borders of the land on the south by the west sea.

When I read these scriptures last night, I recalled upon two different types of courage, strength, activity and truth in all things.

There are men and woman fighting in horrific battles, risking their lives every moment so that we might have freedom.
There are men and woman who are sacrificing the oppurtunities of life for something greater than they, missionary work.

In verse 20 it says "...they were men who were true at all times in whatsoever thing they were entrusted."

I want to be this valiant and courageous. I want to be TRUE in all things.
I want the Lord to Entrust me with important battles, and work. I want him to Entrust me with the things of this life and the things of the life to come.

: to confer a trust on; especially : to deliver something in trust to

: to commit to another with confidence

I want the Lord to know He can Trust me. And that He can commit to me in confidence that I can do it. That I will.
I want to stand for strength and activity. I want to do the Lords work in all things. Follow his path, and his will for me.
In turn, I can put my Faith in the Lord, and follow his commandments and entrust him to guide me where He would have me go, where I Know I will be happiest.

I'm grateful for this scripture. For the Men and Woman who fight for my freedom
and for the Men and Woman serving Missions for the
Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Im grateful for their Courage, Valiance and Support.

I want to be as Helaman, and Lead my brothers and sisters to the support of eachother.
I want to support members and non-members of the church.
I want to support family.
I want to support others.

Not because I have to.
But because I want to.

I need to be humble. and Grateful for the blessings in my life.
For all that Ive been given.
I need to be more courageous and valiant and stand for whats Good and Right.

I want to be entrusted with the care and love and support of others.
No matter the circumstance.
Because I can, and because I want to be like my brother Jesus Christ.
I strive to be like him and in being like Him, I am like Helaman.
I am like the men and woman who are serving around the world.
No matter the difference in their service, it is Service.

Thank You to all the Soldiers and Missionaries who are doing all that they can to bring freedom and rightness to those around them. I keep you in my prayers and am humbled and privelaged at all that you do.

Walk Uprightly before the Lord, be true at all times in whatsoever you are entrusted , and the Lord
will Bless you.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Close Call

As I sit in the Pew Home
watching Tressa and Hyrum play with transformers and
watch Bedtime Stories
I try to decide what I want to write today.

I recieved a Phone call just now
with word that my Dad has been in an accident
My mom says he is okay, But he hit his chest pretty hard.

As I type, They are with a doctor.
I don't know any more than that.

But one thing I know is that I am completely humbled.
I am afraid for my Dads safety and Health.
more importantly I knew that to find comfort in this scary time
I needed to pray.
I took myself to a bedroom and knelt humbly before the Lord
asking him for safety upon the rest of my family and
To watch over my dad and allow him to be okay.

As I prayed I knew all would be well.
I know that through faithfulness to the Lord and constant Prayer
with an open heart and contrite spirit that my family and loved ones will always be kept safe.
From the wiles of Satan, and the Dangers of the world.
I know that in this scare, I have realized the importance of Eternal Families.
It opened my eyes to the importance of showing my family all the Love that I feel for them.
It helped me realized that we are so blessed to have families here on this earth with us.
We are blessed to have eachother.
I cannot tell of the gratitude that fills my heart that my Dad is okay.
I am so grateful for him. I know he Loves me.
He sacrifices SO much everyday for me, and my family.
I know he loves me and supports me.
He is humble, kind, loving and Im so grateful for these things
and the things he does for me everyday. And for the example he sets.
I love my dad. I love my Father in Heaven for blessing me with such and amazing person in my life.
Im grateful for the assurance that in all trials, I can turn to the Lord, and I can always ask him for safety upon my friends and loved ones.

Be aware of those around you, Love them. Show your unconditional love for them.
Don't ever hold back and Never ever let your Pride get in the way.
It is more important to tell them you love them Now, than wish that you had done it later.

There are certain people in our lives for a reason. Never let those people go.
Hold onto them.
Hold onto your Hope and Faith that they will always be kept safe.

Monday, August 16, 2010

The Here and Now

The soft, cool air drifting gently through the windows of my car.
A quiet peace sat near as I lie in my seat. My hair removed neatly from my neck and placed on my shoulder. Single strands brushed against my face as I listen to the sound of the musty monsoon season drifting nearer. I lie with my eyes closed. One arm stretched atop my head and the other neatly place on the headrest. I feel comfortable. Peaceful. Quiet. The earth rotating around me.Yet I sit here, content. No movement beyond the time, as it slowly floats by. I don't notice the time. I don't feel the moments pass. I feel myself being in the moment. I am aware of each small sound. Crickets chirping their innocent sounds, the blades of what grass there is, were scratching against eachother. The lights buzzed softly with moths and tiny insects that only knew this moment and the light that surrounded them. I noticed the calm, quiet, steady breathing next to me. I listened intently to the perfect pace. My heart filled with gratitude for these blessings that are the moments I am in.
A peace so good, and right. No, these moments are not passing by. Like the tiny fluffs of summer that drift through the air and make me sneeze. I am taking them in. I know this moment. I feel this moment and I will always be able to reach inside and find those sweet increments of time
and relive them. Because I do not let these go by. I enjoy them.
I breathe in them.
I sing in them.
I laugh.
I listen.
I wonder.
I stop
and I feel.
I create.
I understand.
I am.

For in time,there will be a moment that will dance quickly by and never be endured or lived in.
But for those, we grasp these moments we do live in. And we remember.
The here and now.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Dear Me

You've been going all day.
Although this is good...
You realize its alot better than just sitting in bed
waiting for the time to pass.
You really shouldn't think so much
but, well, thats you.
The little girl in the living room will sleep fine
and so will you.
But mostly
You should stop worrying about the things to come.
Like they say
theres a reason they call this the Present.
Because its a Gift.
Yes, It is.
But how will you Sleep when you're mind is cranking
at 100 miles a minute?
You will probably have to take a nice, relaxing hot shower.
Then, turn on some good, calm music and write a letter or two.
Then, in no time, you will be holding your eyelids open.
It's that simple.
Now, Get goin.

P.S. It's only a matter of time.

Love, You.

Should I, or Shouldn't I? Thats the Question.

OLD....Chipmunk Cheeks and Crazy Hair....
Prom: 2005

I don't know what to say. These pictures are...

I'll Just be honest...
I want your Honest Opinion.
I think my hair needs a break from Blonde. Its been blonde for a year and a half.
Its bored, Im bored.

So, Im considering Dark, With bangs.

I just don't know.
In the end, I'll do what I decide last minute
sitting in that chair

either way, these white trash roots I have now, need to go!

So, come one, come all.
Voice your opinions....but be gentle


Monday, August 9, 2010

One Of the Best days Ever.

All I can say is...
I've haven't FELT this happy...In awhile.
I haven't SMILED this much in ages.
I haven't had this feeling is so long.

I Know Things work out for a reason.
I KNOW Heavenly Father will make paths for us.
I know that He loves me, Because even when I stray
even when I make a dumb choice
He still guides me.
He guides me because he wants me to know
He still loves me
and wants me to grow closer to Him.

I have seen so many countless Blessings in my life recently
Its hard to hold back the gratitude I have for my Father in Heaven.
He KNOWS me.
He LOVES me.
And because I know these things
It helps my testimony grow that I will be Happiest where he guides me.
I know fully, that if I am willing to sacrifice the little insignificant things I want NOW
and Do all that I can to grow closer to him...
The end result will be my COMPLETE happiness.
Inside. and Out.

I am SO happy today.
Even my mom noticed.
She said she hasn't seen me this happy in a long time.
And its because I have had some major changes
and some MAJOR closure.
and some MAJOR excitement.

One day, you will possibly know what Im speaking of.
But for now
Its a secret.
I Grand Secret.

A secret so wonderful


that it will make even the toughest Smile.

Yes. One day I will write of Wonderful things.

But for now....
I just smile.
Because I know...All things work out in mysterious ways..
And I know its because thats how the Lord works.

And that my friends

Works for Me.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Losing It

Sometimes, I think I've already lost It.
Sometimes, I wish I would.
Then I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.

I am sitting at home, all alone in my big bed.
Eating grilled chicken and listening to FM Static.
The song is called "Take me as I am"


Is it so wrong that I hate being alone?
I don't want to spend my time thinking about myself
Worrying about little things that never matter
or ever will.
I hate the feeling that at any moment I could think something I dont want to.
Don't get me wrong.
I am so comfortable just relaxing.
I am okay when I can be quiet and Peaceful.

My life isn't so hectic and insane that when I get the chance to breathe
I don't.

Because I do.
But I know I have to ability to make it so much better
with someone by my side.
I will never be
and I am not the type

who wants to be alone.

I want to love someone
Take care of them.
Give them all that I have, and Fight to give them even more than that.
I want to feel peaceful knowing I can give all I have to offer
to someone who wants it.

I know.
Some may say Im in too much of a hurry.
But I'm not.

I just know when I am happiest.
When I can fully give all I have to someone.

Sue me.
But don't really....I don't have anything to give
But Love.

So if you wanna, you can sew me for that.

I just know one thing
God made me this way for a reason
I'd rather spend all my time serving and doting on someone else
because when I'm alone
all I do is think think think

and it never gets me anywhere but

So for now, I'll settle with my chicken and Hunger Games.
Ill listen to music.
Make my bed.
Do the 3 dishes in the sink
and clean out the fridge.

I know sooner than later
I'll just wanna say goodnight to someone.
And love them.

One things for sure...
When that day comes...
I will have plenty of love to give and It wont ever go away.

And I am okay with that.

I may be losin' my mind but I still got my Heart.

(P.S. I loooove you guys!)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I Went, And I'm Glad I did.

I went to Lake Powell.
Met my new friend Cason...

Spent alot of quality time with Rhetlee....
Loved watching Squishy Be Cute...
Decided Buddha would be a Heartbreaker when he grows up...
Took tons of Pictures ...
And Had a Blast. I don't even know where to begin.
It was an amazing trip. With Amazing people. I feel in love with the Olsen
and Ashby Families and Decided My new obsession is The Lake.
(2nd in line to The Dunes)

But Im am glad I decided to go, and put aside my fears of looking ugly all week,
Matter of fact, I didnt even think about it.
I was having too much fun.

I realized Life is too Short.
We have got to love who we are and just Live Life.

Gahh, I Love Lake Powell.
I love being Sunkissed.
I love feeling like Butterflies live in my stomach.
I love My cousin Shaunie and her Hubs Ramsey.
I love Utah.
I Love Love Love LOVE!