Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Losing It

Sometimes, I think I've already lost It.
Sometimes, I wish I would.
Then I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.

I am sitting at home, all alone in my big bed.
Eating grilled chicken and listening to FM Static.
The song is called "Take me as I am"


Is it so wrong that I hate being alone?
I don't want to spend my time thinking about myself
Worrying about little things that never matter
or ever will.
I hate the feeling that at any moment I could think something I dont want to.
Don't get me wrong.
I am so comfortable just relaxing.
I am okay when I can be quiet and Peaceful.

My life isn't so hectic and insane that when I get the chance to breathe
I don't.

Because I do.
But I know I have to ability to make it so much better
with someone by my side.
I will never be
and I am not the type

who wants to be alone.

I want to love someone
Take care of them.
Give them all that I have, and Fight to give them even more than that.
I want to feel peaceful knowing I can give all I have to offer
to someone who wants it.

I know.
Some may say Im in too much of a hurry.
But I'm not.

I just know when I am happiest.
When I can fully give all I have to someone.

Sue me.
But don't really....I don't have anything to give
But Love.

So if you wanna, you can sew me for that.

I just know one thing
God made me this way for a reason
I'd rather spend all my time serving and doting on someone else
because when I'm alone
all I do is think think think

and it never gets me anywhere but

So for now, I'll settle with my chicken and Hunger Games.
Ill listen to music.
Make my bed.
Do the 3 dishes in the sink
and clean out the fridge.

I know sooner than later
I'll just wanna say goodnight to someone.
And love them.

One things for sure...
When that day comes...
I will have plenty of love to give and It wont ever go away.

And I am okay with that.

I may be losin' my mind but I still got my Heart.

(P.S. I loooove you guys!)


Buck and Whitni Watkins said...

You aren't losing it.
PS. its sue, not sew. :-)

Brady & Alexes Brown said...

Bree, I love you! I miss you a ton girl! You are such a strong woman and I truly admire you for that! keep it up!