Round One- To Miss Swagger

Las Vegas, Nevada

I have never laid Foot on the Soil of this Forsaken Place.

But This weekend, Ill be making a Trip, No, A Journey

to the countries

Dirtiest

City.

Dirty Money

Is What we will Be Making.

Its Not just a vacation

or A leisure Trip my Friends

We will be coming back Billionaires.

Millions are for the Birds.

Ive packed my Black Dress, and High Heels.

My Hair is Vegas Blonde.

My nails are done

My legs are tan

and my Teeth are White.

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Ive got dice and Ive Swagger.

My Hands are gettin Hot

I feel like throwin down

right Here on The Strip

but I might get Caught.

My fingers grip, The snake eyes Glare

Im layin it All Down on Red

You Will never go There.

Makin my Billions

My Swag is Legit

Dont threaten Me

Or ill have to Make you Quit.

Your money is mine

Your a Fool I can see

Its only a matter of Time.

Ill walk outta this place, Sunglasses as a mirror

Suit coat crisp and clean

Youll Know we own Billions, and itll Never be Clearer.

You cant talk our Talk

You cant walk our Walk

Hell No I wont be your tutor

I know you wanna be Me

Cause Im'a Hot Shooter.

*

Boom.

Don't Judge, Just be Jealous

We will Be Ballin All over Vegas.

My Cousins wedding is Gonna Rock

But Friends, I cant wait to Throw down.

(by that, i mean, visit the m&mfactory)

I am SOOO Excited.

Infact, My friend K

went on a Diet with No Soda.

A Whole Month,

No Soda.

Just so he can play Craps.

I Have been preparing for this weekend for a Month.

And its time

Time to Show Vegas

Who Wins and who Loses.

What Happens there, Will Stay there.

(except, ill be showin tons of pictures, be prepared!)

Jesus Christ Lives, And, He Loves Us.

I Know He Loves Us.

I know He Died for Us.

I Know He never gave Any of us, something we couldn't handle.

I know when we Feel we can't Handle it, He can Strengthen Us.

I know He guides Us.

I know He has provided a Way for Us, that we Might all Return to Him.

I know that Through him, we find Peace and Happiness.

I know that Following His path and His way, will Only Bring Us Joy.

I know His Gospel is Right and True.

I know he Put Special Guidelines for us, Because they are Right and can only bring us to Him.

I know When that Sweet Spirit is Near, I feel Calm.

Sometimes, I don't Know Much.

But I KNOW this:

There will never be a moment in my life when I ask where God is.

He is There, in Heaven.

Looking down on us, Putting a guiding light in our lives.

Loving us, Preparing Us, Teaching Us, Strengthening Us.

He Will NEVER leave us.

Because

I KNOW

He Loves Us.

The Curse of Independance

As I sit and think about the past few months of my life

I realize how different of a person I am.

I feel guilty at the outcome and often wonder what I will learn

But I also know what I have already Learned.

As many of you may know, And many of you may not

I was married for a little over a year of my life

To an amazing guy with a heart of gold

But Sometimes we make mistakes

and do things that don't make sense

Ever.

Well, I've also been divorced.

In my 22 years of life in this planet

I have never learned more of myself than in this last year.

I know, it was alot to go through

just to learn some

But I know, that in the end

It will be a blessing.

Heavenly Father loves each of us and wants each of us to be Happy.

And when I say Happy, I mean Completely Peaceful.

If we aren't, He doesn't expect us to stay that way.

Well Ever since I've come back to Mesa

I have had to adjust alot.

I am finally going to start my old job back up

which I am afraid of. I feel like Ill Fail.

I havent worked in a year.

I fee like Everything I do

is like a new start

But I also feel like Im new at all of it.

Its scary to be someone for so long

and Meet a New You.

Then have to return to the old you once again.

Im afraid to Live life. Im afraid to Run and Let myself Fly.

Im a Dreamer.

Its a curse.

I Dream all day of how I want to be, Who I want to become.

Everyday I strive to be better at something.

Some things I have decided for myself:

1. Be outgoing, Don't be afraid of anyone. Chances are, they are just as scared.

2.Make new friends,Love people, Love yourself- and others will too

3. Work Hard.Working hard makes me strong and capable of so much more.

4. Smile all day. Don't let the little things take away your sunshine.

5.Be kind. To everyone, Love them like they are you Family. Drop what you're doing and serve them.

6. Take in the moments, not the hours.

7.Enjoy the small things. But Don't ignore the big moments in life.

8. Trust myself to Be. Be good, Be happy,Be smart, Be wonderful,Be intelligent, Be kind, Be patient, Be selfless.

9.Don't be afraid to follow your dreams. Take that random trip, Sing out loud while your driving, Dance around the kitchen, Smile at a stranger, Take chances, Take Risks, Learn new things, Never be afraid. Nothing can stop you, But you.

10. Love unconditionally. Myself and Others.

As I read this list, Im certain I have left some out

Im certain I have thought of others

and they may be significant or not.

But thats No matter.

Because I know that As I try to do this, sometimes Ill be brought down.

I am the only one who can let myself feel defeated.

But today, I felt defeated.

I havent been working as much as I needed

I havent done all that I can to better myself

I have made dumb decisions

But

Its Okay.

I learn.

We never stop learning.

I know that when My clutch is bad, I shouldnt drive to Tucson.

I know that when I have No money I should go spending it.

I can recognize the feeling that tells me something isn't a good idea.

This week I have tried to make friends

And because I am so attracted to things that guys like, I like to make friends with them.

I decided not to be afraid of myself

So I introduced myself to a guy at the mud bogs who is a mechanic and Likes to play in the dirt.

He is a good friend now.

If I want to work on a truck, just to learn how It works,

He will do it with me.

I decided to reconnect with old friends

Ones who will go to midnight movies, and get pumped about going to Las Vegas with me

Just because we wanna Dress like we're millionaires.

I let myself go offroading with some new people

and had a blast.

I didnt hold myself back.

Now they are good friends

The kind who call at 10pm to go cruise the desert

or hit the mud bogs

or go find treasure around town.

I like being me,

Im spontaneous

Not embarrassed to act stupid

Crazy

Slap Happy

Random

I love to play in the dirt

Do something crazy just to feel that way

I like being confusing

I like not knowing what tommorrow will hold

I like getting excited about one night camping trips

just to leave and come right back

I love the smell of gasoline

Lyin on the ground just to look under a truck

I love the sunshine

Loud music and driving fast.

I am me. And I am okay with that.

I try to be honest and tell it how it is.

My friend is struggling right now, he has been in my life for 5 years now. And I have always cared about him. I care about my friends.

I have a tendancy to love unconditionally.

That is my downfall.

My mom tells me Not to count on making alot of guy friends because guys my age

want wives

and I just wanna be Friends.

Shes So right.

But it makes me angry. I just want to be a good friend, maybe I just wanna be one of the guys.

Today I went to walmart and Bought My friend some survival goodies and put them in a bag.

and I took them to his moms house just so he Could have a surprise.

My brother told me Not to be TOO nice.

I got so angry.

I just want to be kind. I did it because I know it will Help. Because I know it will make things easier on him. Because I care.

And thats all I want.

I want to be ME, without all the assumptions, the judgements.

I want things to make sense, I want others to understand who I am.

I will always want to do and be the kindest person I can.

If that means making a package just so you Smile.

So

be

It.

If I want to drive 2hours just to be with an old friend, Just to escape here, and go there.

Trust me.

I can.

I know Im independant-

I want to drive far-

all by myself

I want to buy my own things

pay my own bills

I want to be tell you you are amazing

and Not feel like Ill lead you on

I want to tell you YOU CAN

and Not have everyone tell me I am making you believe something else.

I want to Love you and Not feel like I have to marry you.

I want to smile at you, just so you smile.

I want to rub your back, because it hurts, And I want to help.

I want to give you a note because your day was bad.

I want to Laugh because your funny

or

call you to see how you are.

When I say You, I mean all my friends.

I want my friends, my family

to know I love them.

I want to tell you I love you

and I hope you know I mean it.

I dont want being me, or being independant to be a curse.

I dont think its meant to be that way.

I want to do what guys do, I want to sleep under the stars

fix things that are broken

have dirt on my face and not care

Have my hair in a mess, and it be no matter,

I want to have a zit and not feel like pounds of makeup is needed to impress you.

I want to come over in sweats and a ponytail just to hang out and relax.

I want to eat food and not feel like im being compared to the anorexic girl next to me

I want to be proud of my chubby self and to love me, for me.

If you dont like how I look, Its okay.

Everyone is different. I dont need the world to love me

I love me.

And thats all that matters.

I hope I can make new friends

and have them forever.

I hope I can continue to learn about Me

and Love me

I know sometimes Ill doubt myself

But its okay

Ill be stronger tommorrow.

I Know who I am, And what I feel and what I mean. And I promise to be honest and kind.

I Promise to never give Up on myself

or on my family

or friends.

I promise to remember I CAN.

I always can.

And I know you can too.

I have a purpose on this earth

And its not to hide behind my fears

or run away from an oppurtunity.

Its to embrace to the good, and be the best.

The worth of Souls is Great in the Sight of God.

Love, Bree

I little Bit of Yummy

HAPPY DAY!

Happy Saint Patricks Day Everyone!

Now moving on

Tonight

is going to be EPIC

I will be heading over to one of my favorite Bars

(even though I dont drink,Im allowed to Love a Bar right?)

TobyKeiths I love the Bar

Because the one and only

Easton Corbin

Will be Debuting.

What

A

Babe

But thats beside the point

Its also Free and Fun

I cannot wait

In fact

Im waiting to shower until before that

So I feel alll good and ready to PARTY

Without the drinks of course

Although

Just like at the Gretchen Wilson Concert

Ill be drinking water and dancing

My butt will still jiggle and

People may or may not still think im Drunk.

Oh well

At least Im a Friendly " Drunk"

haha

Now for a Tale:

Yesterday My sister and I sat in bed

and decided it would be Grand to get in the little red car

and drive to Tucson to see my Dear friend Kamry and her three

little angels. We were stoked.

I gathered my things, my siblings and went out the door.

We drove and drove...for what seemed like ages

But the weather was amazing and were were blasting music with the windows

down

Nothing is better than that.

Nothing

I noticed my cars RPMs reving up and the speed going way down

and I did all I could to stay at a normal pace

But when the RPMs got to 5 and the speed to 40 I decided I needed to Pull over.

I did just that.

As I went to the side

The clutch just went out, Right under my foot.

Good thing I was getting off.

We called my mom, and asked her to call Dad.

Cause we knew he'd think we were retarted for driving that little piece of crap

in the first place

OH WELL.

We sat for 3 Hours

I enjoyed the loud music, and the Nice breeze.

4 Officers stopped to check on us.

Cade Got way bored and Opened up the back seat into the trunk

(I may or may not have thought about closing the seat so he was stuck in the trunk)

Finally Our Amazing Dad shows up.

Him and that Dolly in allll their

U-hauled glory.

He is my Hero.

He wakes Up at 3am

every day

and works until about 4pm.

He works his butt off.

Then he has to jump in the truck

drive 2 hours to tow us back 2 more hours

and I am SOO grateful for him

We LOVE you Dad!

Thats my Story

and Sadly we never made it to Kam's house.

But I WILL and NOTHING will stop me.

(Oh and did I mention we Also Said Prayers. Its no wonder we were So safe all that time, right on the edge of the busy Highway...)

Hope Ya'll have a Fabulous Fabulous Day Today!

Ihop? Somewhere? Anywhere? Nowhere.

Well, Its been a day.

(obviously)

A long day

(not so obviously)

I went to church with some friends

Who, I must say, I love.

I mean it, Love.

I love them like they be my own siblings.

Or maybe thats awkward

But I love em' anyhow.

My friend K and I went over to our friend J's house

(really his grammas)

And I made K and B eggs.

Who woulda thought while I cleaned up the mess

Id make a bigger one.

J will tell you so.

(he called me out on it. Awkward)

Then we left for Church.

It was no matter to me that just moments before Church

I was being made fun of

Because

I love Church.

There is a certain Peace and Comfort there.

The spirit Dwells there.

And I am grateful.

Its like a recharge for my batteries.

Im grateful I have it.

Im grateful for friends.

After church, I went home.

Sadly

I sat on the computer for awhile.

( i really mean "awhile")

and was supposed to hang out with another friend, G.

G ended up not being able to.

So I went back over to K's house.

Oh the Joy.

Awkward story.

I was in the back of K's truck

(back seat)

B and K were in the front.

K's parents drive by, stop, and so did we.

K's dad Stares me down

Like a bull would do to a stupid man in red.

but he didnt move

He just...Stared.

AWKWARD.

Thats it. Guess you had to be there

But in the end, He realized it was just

me.

Little ol' Bree.

Harmless little Me.

Hallelua.

When I went back to K's

we rented a Redbox

(whoever invented it, is loaded)

and got the Time Travelers Wife.

Not suggested...Theres alot of Face hair

and bad acting.

Sweet, but So not worth it.

In other news today

K,B and J decided I am a HATER.

Yes, a hater.

Because I speak truths.

Like For instance: Cute girl in Church, AKA, Sacajewa.

I tell them

Very Cute, Not your type.

Hater.

Making fun of the Fake hair in the T.T.W movie.

Hater.

Telling J and K that Craps is lame

Hater.

I learned today, that Indeed, I am a hater.

Of all things Cheezy, Unrealistic and Cheap.

Is this such a Crime? No. Am I still a Hater. Yes.

Friends, This post was really random. Its now 3:05am

I seriously need to go to bed.

Oh and I think I saw Hayleys Comet tonight.

That comet was Just doin' it.

Doin Work.

Sleep good guys, Loves.

Gretchen Wilson at Toby Keiths I love this Bar

Yes, This Very Sexy Lady was in Mesa, Arizona Tonight.

( and I am allowed to say shes sexy, Im allowed to check out girls...)

She was doing her very first Show in a small Venue and

SHE ROCKED IT.

I have a whole new respect for this girl

She really does ROCK

and sounds just as amazing in person.

HOW COOL.

Anyway, that was my adventure for the night

and I loved it.

I also Hiked today.

(some of you are probably gasping in shock)

Because you should be!

I havent done that much physical activity since I walked to the mail box.

I went up Usery Pass, and it was ROUGH.

I can feel my Hips and Knees starting to stiffen.

But

I am going again tommorrow. Whether or not I die.

I need to get in shape.

This has been a realization of mine forever

BUT

tonight, while I danced and shook my big ol' butt

It Jiggled.

YES

JIGGLED.

Heaven forbid, it jiggle. I mean...Come On.

I danced anyway.

But Every once in awhile Id come back to reality and realize I was probably causing an

Earthquake.

And Id stop.

Its called common Courtesy People!

Meanwhile Other people, walk by, Hit you in the jaw and then shove their dadnabbed

Elbows in your ribs, and it gets nasty.

I was bein nice anyway though

Cause even though Im a

Redneck Woman

I can be a High Class Broad.

Okay not really, But I can be patient.

I tried.

All in all, it was a fun night.

And I totally suggest listening to Gretchen, cause she'll rock your socks off.

Have a Fabulous Night.

Loves! Bree