Long time Coming

It's been a long time comin'.

This feelin' I've got.
No rains gonna wash it

No Suns gonna bleach it

It's here and I want to run from it.

But

I plant my feet right here where Im at

Where my roots take me back

Im not leavin this place
Till Ive got dirt on my face

and some bone in my back.

Im holding out strong

Im gonna hold on

cause thats what my brother would do

He'd tell me to pray

and walk in his way

He'd tell me to smile

work and serve all the while.

My knees will get shaky

My heart will feel broken

the tears will roll
But Ill continue on my journey

till all things have been spoken.

I will not give up

I will not sit down and cry

Ill stand and make known the warrior I am.

Satan cant take me

Ive got my brother at my side
and with this faith, I wont hide

Its a battle worth fighting

My life is worth living

This spirit is worth strengthening

And I wont give up on myself.

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Dear Friends

I feel like I want to share with you a story.

It's about me.

I took a bike ride tonight and wanted to just let the wind hit my face.

Sometimes its just nice to breathe in some fresh air and let all the bad go out.

So I did Just that.

I looked up at the stars and thought:

Heavenly Father, I know what the meaning of life is. I know where Im going and

why Im here. I know this gospel is true, I know its right and good.

I know whats right and whats wrong

I know you created this beautiful place and that Im here for a purpose.

But sometimes I wonder

When Ill get to the place

on this earth

When I am most peaceful.

I know that each day has its struggles. I am not naive

or stupid

Nothing comes easy.

But I also know

That through Faith, comes Hope.

And with faith and hope and alot of determination to fight for my own peacefulness.

My own Happiness.

And Goodness in my life.
I will find it.

And when I get there

It will be Bliss.

Because even then

My Trials and Tribulations

will seem worth the fight.

I know my Father in Heaven gave me this spirit

so I can fight

So I can know what its like to want to give up

and then realize

I am worth the fight.

That peace, that happiness.

Its worth the battle.

And once I win the war

The battles will come easier.

Lately I cry because I feel like I just can't do it.

I just cant go another day feeling like Ive got nothing to live for.

No goals.

But I do have alot to live for.

Ive got a Life to live for.

Family.
Sunrises, sunsets.

Laughing and crying.

Goosebumps.

Smiles.

It all seems worth it in that moment when I feel so happy

I want to cry

And that makes me know

Its worth it now

Even if I want to give up and just sit in bed all day.

"Broad is the gate, and wide the way that leadeth to the deaths; and many there are that go in thereat, because they receive me not..."

I've learned that only through my Faith in my Father in Heaven and in my brother Jesus Christ,

I can direct my own path, according to my Fathers plan for me, and it can be away from that broad gate.

I learned that I will make mistakes

and that through them I am strong.

But Now I know

it is not those mistakes that

Make me.

I make myself from the mistakes.

I do not let them mold me or determine my future.

I make it for myself.

" For straight is the gate, and narrow the way that leadeth unto the exaltation and continuation

of the lives, and few there be that find it..."

I walk on that straight and narrow path

from here until He comes again.

I will fight this war and win.

I will fight the battles and conquer

and when I go to the gates of Heaven and look at my Brother,and my Father in Heaven,

I will Know that in me

is the Truth, the Courage

The light.

All my weaknesses and downfalls

the trials

will have been made strong unto me.

I will be Done with my learning and growing

I will be strong and refined

I will know who I am

and the Fight that I fought.

And then

I will start all over.

" Around here, however,we don't look backwards for long. We keep Moving Forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious...and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths."

Keep Moving Forward